I've put my foot in it again, after a promise to myself not to let my emotions take control of me.
Well it's a very sad story of me falling inlove after a very and when i say very, i truly mean a very long time of casual affairs, one night stands, stalkers and obssesses lil' mother fuckers that don't know when to let go.
I'm inlove with this friend of mine. If i could explain my love for him in two words, i guess it would have to be "unexpected and complete" i don know if it makes any sense but lets jus leave it at that becoz it would take a whole lot of my time sitting in front of this thing and trying to explain...
We have what you mite call a ghostly relationship, it only comes alive at nite and more frequently when we drunk or when one of us is or when someone decides to speak up about their feelings, and that only last for like 5 -10 minutes max and then we sort of drift away to doing our things again and pretend as if nothing hppened. A whole lot of my friend think it's me because apparently i'm a risk to have as a straight girlfriend (which he wishes for me to be) or a girlfriend period and that's what he also keeps telling people. Apparently I'm the type of person who would wake up one morning and decide that fuck all of this and just walk, this being said by one of my friends and i sort of think he was told this as well...
Anyhu i am inlove and eveytime i try to clear the air between us becoz i am seriously confused and am not really sure where i stand, with him that is, i don know he sort of seems distant and not really interested in what i have to say or it mite b me reading too much into it. Rite now i don even know whether to go see him or jus let it go or do something and i'm going insane becoz i have all of these ? marks in my head...
About Me
- Miss Daisy
- Nelspruit, Mpumalanga, South Africa
- I'm a simple person
2 comments:
In case y'all were wondering, it aint me. Good luck.
Kwaki, get over yourself!!!!
Oi, you are in a tough one.... so here is my 2c worth,
Give yourself a chance to be love someone and get that same kind of love back. I mean apparantly I was like that too until I met BF and actually took a chance ( I kinda macked him a bit - LoL)and right now he's madly into this relationship that it's scary (4 me that is, I'm not used to so much attention).
Maybe the friends and love interest say all those nthings coz U give the impession that U simply don't give a fuck.... That I think is just a defence mechanism towards being scar'd and hurt blah, blah!
Uyoze uguge solo uba nama casual flings and goin with da "flow", how many flows does one have to go with in one lifetime???
STraighten your shit out with him before your "thing" turns to some toxic one sided relationship.
YOu love hin don't you??? Take that plunge and make sure he hears what you are saying, if he doesn't feel you like that ~ Let it go,
Besides there are too many people who are in meaningless relationships and they don't even know it.
I know of someone who'd like to love you ( and no it is not Kwaki).
I should becon an agony aunt!!!! What ya'll think.
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